I was going to say that the big issue of today is finding more hours in the day, but come to think of it, it’s really not. The problem may be time, yes, but to be fair, it is impossible for ANYONE to find more time or make more time. We get what we get, nothing more.
What is possible, however, is to organise time in a better fashion. To decide what’s important and eliminate the rest. Ok, maybe not. I know that most of us would like to eliminate a thousand commitments and that is not possible in most cases. But what is really possible is to allocate different ranks of importance to each of the things we need or want to do.
A very important part of adulting is to learn to balance those two crucial aspects in life: we have obligations and needs that need to be met, but we also have deep desires, dreams or fantasies that we want to manifest in our reality. Let’s be honest, nobody likes to, for example, spend a whole day cleaning their home, or doing the washing up, etc. But if we want to live in a healthy, nurturing environment, doing those thing becomes essential.
*Many people will argue that nobody likes to work and we HAVE TO do it, if we want to eat or have a place to live, let alone having nice things or experiences. And I will say yes, maybe. But I’ll go further and say that we NEED TO work. I shall digress on this particular topic in another post.
Back to our desires. These are the things that we tend to take for granted, the ones that make us feel selfish, the things that are too big and scary and precious that we keep them inside, the things we dare not speak aloud. Well, perhaps I’m exaggerating. Sometimes we do let them out, but we give them just the time that we have left, crumbs of our attention.
And those spare moments are what keeps us alive the rest of the week, by the way.
This should be the start of my third week on The Artist’s Way programme, but I have decided that I’m going to repeat the second week, because, to be honest, I didn’t do it. I have been doing the Morning Pages, which initially I had thought was going to be the hardest thing, but I haven’t done any of the other tasks, and I would like to complete the work because I already feel it has helped me so much.
And one of the tasks for Week 2 is taking a close look at what I do with my time, where it goes and to find any possible imbalances. Of those, there are a lot. And of course, there is a lot of work to do, but I am approaching this little by little, step by step. I have started by doing my Morning Pages everyday, by reading a little everyday (or a lot, if possible) and by writing on my blog.
And I have already prioritised this, because it is very important to me. At first I was writing at night, after my last class, which finished at 9:30. At that time I was tired, thinking of going to bed, and restless too, because I was in turn meditating much later and thus falling asleep during meditation. So I decided to write my blog entry in the afternoon, when I am fresher and I have more time, and I already feel much better, even a little bit more productive.
I also have made use of my time more efficiently in terms of how much time I devote to work and to planning for it. I’m still looking for the more efficient way of devoting enough time to my classes and still have time to do the things that feed my soul.
I still need to create the time and space for my tarot studies, for reading, for writing poetry and for witchcraft.
I have never been a person of schedules, I had always worked better under pressure, but now I’m feeling relaxed, content and hopeful that I have finally managed to build up a practice where I can start making my art and I can start a new life, the life I have always wanted to make for myself.